What the Hell?!

Sometimes it matters, sometimes it doesn't. Today not much. I don't drink Tran because I think that in some way I don't need it. All is in some particular position.
I read few mails - mainly written by myself and got this impression that I was wrong:) Some people try to make me feel guilty but I don't. Some people don't know what they want from the life. Some people don't know who they really are. Some people lost their minds.

And I don't show up with my face. I put the red glasses and just appear like that and some people demand knowing me but they fail.
They all have left. I am staying alone. I need it more than ever. I will travel soon but they don't point it out that I am here NOW. They all suck but in some way my glasses personality likes them.

Shops are crazy these days. Sometimes I go there only to look at the people, check what's new on the shelves and maybe compose some meal from the products that I never put into my hands.

The best are sports centers. I pass them while cycling home. Inside all those windows walls, people are sweating on all machines that steal from you the feeling of cold, wind, authenticity and landscape. Instead you receive the fast access. Simple artificial life.

I talked to Dziober who knows much more about my family's life then I. That makes me laugh.

And if all the signs on the Earth are against the Christmas Eve I don't fucking hesitate. Actually I have no money on me so maybe better just watch some movie or go for a walk and get out of this culture and try to confront me with the solitude that is known as the worst. I love to challenge and am seeking for some new. Why not the Christmas Eve.

I don't think so that anybody is reading this blog but if, I would say

Merry Christmas! I make mine later when the marzipan will be cheaper:) and I won't need so much afford to get it.

Anyway I like to write for myself.

Ciao!