Thursday, 29 November 2012

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My friend had a birthday today. She is one year old and party was excellent. We laughed a lot, a bit cry, like old good friends, you know.

I am in the mood of one year old. You know, just eat some goodies, new taste, laugh a bit, cry a bit if no one want to hug me.

I sit in my caravan again. Bit messy today. I have no power to move those things again in the order. Circle is circling again in the sky.

I don't own anything and I own nothing.

Only my heart and love that flows there. It is beautiful feeling. Very pure. Love to all beings, love to all spirits, if I would die in this moment, then what? What it would change? What it would change?

Sometimes you can just sit in your caravan and give a time to Universe to make its job. You can just sit or you can go outside and dance with trees, you can go and talk to the creek, you can go and embrace the mountain, you can run just run into the space and laugh and feel that you are free.

And even if you are far away then you are still just by my side. You are far and so close. Better if we don't speak too much. Just look at the same fjord. Just look into our hearts and feel the joy of reunion, exchange the flow of heartbeats, look into the eyes and see the landscape, infinite landscape of our possibilities, of our freedom while being together, to follow the path of the forest, traces of ancestors, roots of truth.

There is nothing more I would like to see you now but at the same time I see you now, you are just here, I can feel you so strong, you are here by me, but still I am alone. I am here in this caravan that I have never invited you to, in my little cave that when the time comes I will move into the world. I am here. I am here. I am here. And I am with you. And I missed you so much all those years when we were separated. But the old man told us in the dream that it is not me that you are waiting for but you can learn a lot. Sometimes wisdom is stronger than pain we chose. Sometimes we need to do the things that are supposed to be done. Either we enter the last cycle of brutal Kali or we reborn again in the stars, who knows. As far as we sit still in our caravans, where the life expands.

I want to dance, I want to dance so much that actually I am gonna do it. I will dance forever in my mind, my thoughts twisting and swirling, around the beauty of this.... of this moments of infinite love that flows in the rivers of our hearts.

I don't want to be a mad man, I just want to be myself. 

1 comment:

Andrè said...

NICE WORD's JACEK !